ahhh, Winter! the season of love...

wow that sounded so incredibly stupid...
ai! ai! ai!
ai= love. lol.

girlnextdoor's in ai, i'm in crush (lol)... kay i'm in major crush... i wouldnt stop babbling on and on about G... i'm sure gnd got bored... lol.

today he talked to me!!! and i saw him looking in my direction a couple times throughout the day, but i doubt he was looking at me :)
he couldn't get his locker open (wow! what a surprise! lol), and his friends were teasing him about it. he said, "Hey! I'm doing what everyone else is doing! Courntey! You did this!" as i was walking away from my locker. I don't know if he heard me, i hope he did, but i said "I did not!!!" lol. ya i kno, what a creative response!!! lol.

we (girlnextdoor and i) were IMing...
girlnextdoor: does he know you EXIST??? lol jk jkjkjkjkjk
Courtney : of course he does! weren't u even listening to my rants earlier? lol
girlnextdoor: yes, but how do you know that he wasnt talking to his locker?
girlnextdoor: maybe courtneys a family name
girlnextdoor : and thats wat he named his comp...
Courtney : very funny
(EDIT: sorry, i accedently typed in Kara... that's the name of another one of my friends... i was talking to her at the same time, so it kind of confused me... but i changed it to girlnextdoor!)

we (girlnextdoor and i) were having a conversation about our comouter's names... lol.
but i'm soso happy... its soso wonderful... girlnextdoor said that i should "just ask him out already!" i'm so tempted to... but i'd have to keep it a secret from my mom... which would be SO hard... my friend's couldn't tell their parents, and i'm sure they'd be dying to tell them that i finally got a bf! lol. but he'd more than likely reject me, anyways. like i rejected him last year (oh, i really hope it wouldn't be that aweful... but in my defense, i was still convinced that boys were disgusting little bugs back then!!! and i didn't even KNOW who he was!!! if anyone asked me out that day, i would have had the exact same reaction!)... hmmm... now i'm thinking about that day... a preppy girl asked me out for him... i said "EW! ewewewewew noooo!" my cousin said "Tell him to get a life!" then a few minutes later my cousin told me to look over to his table, and he was sitting there with his head on the table, resting on his arms... then later that day. last hour, in gym, we were playing field hockey (it was actually fun!)... and i was opposing him... i remeber thinking, "hey, isn't this the guy who asked me out at lunch today? oh, well..." lol.
HE.
IS.
KAWAII!!!
<3 <3 <3
no... more than kawaii...
HOTT!!! <3 <3 <3

kay, i'm done now. :D